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It seems a distant memory from the days when with no thought I could saddle up and go for a nice ride out, whether that was on Kyle or  Spike. These days I spend just feeling lucky to have my two horses knowing there are many out there who dream of what I have.
Today I felt ill but I still went to see my boys, as I walked slowly down to their paddock I saw them both standing there waiting, watching ever so patiently.

I went into the field and placed Kyle's purple bucket down and quickly as I could showed Spike his bucket and led him away from Kyle. If I don't do this Spike flits from bucket to bucket and as Spike is on Detox I can't have the lads swapping feeds.

I watch them eating as a Barge slowly goes by on the canal that runs along side, a woman waves hello and I wave back. Its nice to see there are still some nice people around, not many but there are some. Have you noticed how people seem to be in a hurry, no time to talk yet it only takes a second to smile or say hello.

Once the horses have finished eating I check them over and give both Kyle and Spike a carrot each. Kyle nuzzles in which is  rare delight and Spike gets in the on the action, ever the mummies boy. I pick up the feedbuckets and slowly head back onto the yard. My boots are rubbing on my ankles and its painful to walk, I must do something about that.  Kyle and Spike like lawnmowers put their heads down and start eating the grass. I stand and watch them for a few moments while I catch my breath and think back to the surgeons words. "You may always suffer pain in your back" "You may never be able to ride again" What will be will be...  at least I have their company and their love.

Back home I wash and sit down, its hard to breathe and when I inhale it feels like my chest is being crushed and its painful. I take my inhalers but get little relief. Think I have an infection as my throat is very dry and I was woken up quite a few times last night coughing.

I have played a little with the dogs but my energy is soon zapped, watching eastenders now, well sort of, rather half watching it.

Gonna go to bed soon as not feeling good, hopefully my next catch up is better.

Zzzzz   Dawn x